Breaking My (Temporary) Silence

I love these Christmas Creatures by mibostudio. I might just make them with my little boy …

Those who know me would likely admit that I am rarely silent.

I probably should be silent more often than I am. And I endeavor to be silent more often than you would think. But mostly, I am not silent.

These last few months, though, I have been silent more often due to an illness I can’t seem to shake. Finally one night, after being frustrated that I was still sick, I complained to my sister-in-law (who is really no sister-in-law at all–just a sister). I poured out my frustration, my aches and pains, my discouragement … really, she should have sent me a bill. But instead, she gave me the most unexpected advice ever:

“Take a pregnancy test.”

Why would I do THAT? I expected advice more along the lines of, “Take a nap.”

Lo and behold, my sister-in-law was right. I should be in the delivery room by the end of June, God-willing. I take nothing for granted. If all goes well, God will have granted me 2 precious children in 11 months. Boy, how life can change in an instant! (or, more specifically, in 11 months)

So–while accompanying my son to his plethora of health appointments (while we seek to understand the extent of his heart and lung conditions)–I am traveling with a bucket and a prayer. Most days, when I am not busy saving the world, I am sitting very still, sipping a glass of ice water.

Forgive me that I have been touch-and-go with this blog. I love it dearly and am sad when I can’t tell you what I’m learning. But hopefully I will soon take an exit out of the worst part of these woods.

Here is what I tell myself daily: Pain is passing. Illness is not forever. The future is bright.

I believe these things–


  1. Congratulations!

  2. ice water+lemon=survival in the first 12-14 (or longer) weeks

  3. I don’t know about ice water, but when I tell people to sip ginger tea or Canada Dry ginger ale, they tell me it works.

  4. Emmy Daniels says:

    I love the way you put it: “traveling with a bucket and a prayer.” I remember getting sick in plastic grocery bags in the car. And although I would NEVER wish you sick, I am so happy for the reason you are sick! It is so worth it, and I am so excited for you and Luke and Andrew. I am praying for you, too, that everything will go well. And that you’ll have a girl. (Although I’m sure Andrew would love a baby brother, and I could be ok with that!)

  5. I am right there with you. Looking forward to the end of this month when, maybe, I’ll be out of the morning sickness haze. I’ve found that ginger snaps have helped me this time. Congratulations on your two new additions!

  6. This is the best news I have heard in days!!! Well not the sick part obviously but I am so thrilled for you and your growing family. What an amazing turn of events. You are the most wonderful person I know and your kiddos are so lucky to have you as their mom.
    Congratulations and I hope you feel better soon!!!!

  7. Suzanne Broadhurst says:

    Congratulations on the baby news! It will be well worth the wait, and the, uh, less than pleasant moments of early pregnancy. Saltine crackers and ginger tea, in tiny bites and sips helped me back in the day.

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